Saturday, December 21, 2013

Cave

My retreat, my solace,
Where my mind goes to escape
The ever-ambient stimuli and chatter 

It's my hiding place of sorts,
Usually, a welcome reprieve
Where time and thought are pure and reflective

My time to simply be,
To exist in a universe of my own creation,
To filter, percolate, and compose

The cave is an opportunity to explore 
The recesses of my mind
That have need of a visit or kind word.

Some days the shadows are imposing.
Self-reflection may not always be ominous or feared, 
But it is daunting on the days of self-doubt

On those days, the cobwebs in the corners are dense,
More like oil than water, 
Or muscle than fat, if you will.

The cave can be tricky,
Treacherous if one is not careful
Monitoring the surroundings for spiders or falling stalactites

The cave can be a paradise,
The water that sounds from the earth above,
The pyrite on the walls that catches a stray beam of sunlight

The bravura of the cave
Is that I can find it 
Whenever, or wherever I desire

No one, other than myself,
Can barricade the entrance 
Or by any other means prevent my escape from reality.

The cave is not a place for presumptions.
Though it provides clarity at present, 
It can clutter quickly, disturbing the peace and stillness

My rest, my restoration, and occasionally, my revelation,
Where I go when I have no control.
Here, it is safe to admit that I am vulnerable.

The place where the pragmatist can entertain the poet.
Idealism never suppressed, 
In the cave I am free to become myself.*


*Holla a'cha May Sarton

Tremble

This was saved as a draft from 3 years ago.  Much has been learned in the journey since then with beautiful memories abounding!

As I shared with you my truth,
The spirit within me fell
I looked on while you looked away
Torn apart, defeated, left an empty shell

Our walk along the pier
Those moments I will cherish
The fisherman, the birds, the clouds, the words
A calm before the storm and anguish

"For what it's worth, I will miss you"
On our way back from the lake
And "This is it" in your kitchen
Words said as hearts did break

Each of us searching
Our eyes filled with pain
My hands held your face
Tears fell without reign

In a goodbye so silent
Yet with more reverberation than a symbol
Your lips and mine
Met, and did tremble